Four years ago....

Around this time of year for the past three years, I get slightly more emotional/sentimental than usual. Four years ago on November 23rd is when Maylee had her open heart surgery. At a glance it seems like it was forever ago, yet if I think about it more than a minute, all the feelings and emotions come rushing back as if it were yesterday.

It was defiantly the hardest day of my life thus far. Maylee honestly wasn't doing well, she needed the surgery, however they discovered the morning of the surgery Maylee had the MRSA staph infection (yes this is the one people die from....thank goodness I didn't know it at the time). So then they were going to post pone the surgery b/c of the infection, but her stats were too low, and they needed to operate. Talk about a roller coaster of emotions. I could hardly hold it together. I will uphold you with my right hand....that is what I was saying over and over. I can still see the top of her little head, as they rolled her little baby bed through the doors back to the operating room. I truly didn't know if I would see my baby again.

The surgery was about 5 hours long. I remember sitting in the waiting room during the surgery, looking out the windows seeing grey clouds all around. I thought to myself how fitting my outside world looked as gray as my inside one. The cardiothoracic surgeon's assistant would call every thirty minutes to an hour to give a report. I was living phone call to phone, update to update, minute by minute.

About 3pm the final update call came, the surgery had been a success, and Maylee was doing well. Oh what great relief and joy had overcome me. I couldn't stop smiling. I just happened to glance outside, and know what caught my eye?....a rainbow. A rainbow..... how fitting once again that God's reassurance that everything was going to be ok was staring back at me. How great is our God. Now I know God will get you through any situation, through any circumstances good or bad, and I was so glad he had pulled our baby through. The only way we got through that whole ordeal is from the strength of God, and so many people praying for us. We still meet people today that tell us they prayed for Maylee. We were so blessed by so many prayer worriers.

Looking at Maylee today, you would never know how much she has already been through in her four little years. She is a joy that is beyond description. She is physical proof of our wonderful God. We are so grateful for the sweet blessing of our first baby girl.